Not Your PM

Who am I?

At work, I manage complex programs that deliver millions of dollars of revenue. To a point that it makes me wonder why I'm just not in it for myself. Many people make a lot more money than I do and they can't even call a customer back in a timely manner. There used to be a mission, but now that mission appears to be at my best, 100% of the time, for other's payday.

That question comes up a lot for me these days. Do I let the world trample me into submission or do I write it off and do what I always knew I could do? Or do I choose to not participate and forge my own way? Maybe that's why my favorite movie is There Will Be Blood

I'm just getting this config off the ground, so this is a bit of a rant/test for the blog than anything else. But there are some days I agree with the below scene so much, and other's I disagree. Today is a day where I agree.

Daniel Plainview: Are you an angry man, Henry?

Henry: About what?

Daniel Plainview: Are you envious? D'you get envious?

Henry: I don't think so. No.

Daniel Plainview: I have a competition in me. I want no one else to succeed. I hate most people.*

Henry: That part of me is gone. Working and not succeeding- all my, uh... failures has left me, uh... I just don't... care.

Daniel Plainview: Well, if it's in me, it's in you. There are times when I... I look at people and I see nothing worth liking. I want to earn enough money I can get away from everyone.

an evening fire in the backyard